Narcissa Caileigh Vaughn AKA: Cissa

Ya know, Canadian weather has it's downside. The -40 below zero temperatures, the rain, the wind, the sleet and the snow. But it definately has it's upside. And that upside is the summer. Warm, sunny and excellent weather all around, SUMMER!!!

I'm all tanned and pretty now! Well, I'll never be as tanned as, lets say, Adam ^^;; But hey, this tan of mine is coming along nicely. My skin is no longer as white and pasty as porceline! *dances* Thats what verandas were created for. So that I could find my skimpiest bikini and lay out there and get all pretty and tanned.

Amazing news, Rahne and Gage are offically engaged! She finally accepted his marriage proposal! *Glee* It's gonna be a winter wedding, and they're debating how they want too go about it. I hope it's sort of casual. Otherwise, I'll never get Adam inside the door. I'm bloody nervous about asking him if he'll come with me. *crosses fingers* Ugggh... worse comes to worse, I suppose I could go too the Psyc ward and ask if Aiden can have a daypass and get out ><;;;

Never.

ACK! The phone is ringing. I'll post again soon!

I think it's time I stopped pretending that I was going to have an order to these LiveJournal posts. I keep forgetting it's here, which means my enteries are very sparadic. *Sigh* One day I'll get a better memory. *crosses fingers and hopes for a mirical*

Hmm... so, lets see, whats been up lately.

Well first off, I finally got Adam to get his own LiveJournal. So now I'm not the only one. The fact that Jordyn also had one probably helped out.

Rahne is now showing in her pregnancy. Well, she was showing before, but now it's truly noticable. Poor Rahne. Gage is ruining her perfect body ><;; But she's happy, so I guess it can't be all that bad, can it? The baby is due in August, and they also finally settled on a name. Paris Rin Sinclaire.

Gage refused to have a child with a plain name, so he and Rahne decided that he could pick her first name, while Rahne chose the middle name. So Gage picked Paris, and Rahne picked Erin. Erin shortens to Rin, so Paris Rin Sinclaire it is. I think Gage is dissapointed his daughter won't have his name, but if I know my brother he'll find some way to fix that. This is Gage we're talking about here. Mr. "I always get my own way even if it kills me" Vaughn.

Adam and I went shopping down at the Eaton Center yesterday. I bought new clothes, so thats always good. ^^ Actually, Adam paid for them ^^;; This means I'm gonna find some way to pay him back, because I feel guilty that I broke his wallet. Of course, that adorable kilt I got would probably make it up to him anyways ^//^;;; *Giggles* But for some reason he doesn't want me to wear it out of the apartment. Whats the point of buying something I'm not allowed to wear in public, unless its leingerie. I'm not rushing out onto the streets of Toronto in a teddy anytime soon, but I wanna wear the kilt damnit!

Adam also got his ferret. I can't even spell it's name, so I'm just gonna call him Senna for now. Apparently, it's named after some guy Adam learnt about in his history classes. o.0;;; Such a big name for such a small animal. Senna's currently living on our dining room table, and while I admit, he's very cute, I think he's scaring Seraph. *Huggles her kitten* And Spyke...well, he's not afraid of anything, he'd probably try to claw Senna if Senna got to close to him. I swear, that cat has anger issues.

So now I'm awake and just chilling. I have work today from 5 to 9, I'm teaching 2 back to back classes down at the Gym. Go areobics. I worked out a whole new routine today too, so I'll start teaching the class that next. ^^ *is ridiculously proud of herself*

Well I'm off. Gonna make some breakfast, and feed all the animals. Then I'll find some way to wake up Adam. He sleeps like the dead ><;;;

Errr... incase you couldn't tell I'm finished school. I have one more exam to get threw, and then I'm compleatly, totally finished. *Bounds around* Thank you God, I didn't think I could take another month of school and papers and essays and... ugh.

Sarah has decided to have a huge party this weekend,to celebrate the end of our first year in University, which means I'm going, hmmm... wonder if Adam will want to come along. He's met Sarah and Travis, and her three insane brothers ((Well, TWO insane brothers. Triplets ><;; I swear... I don't think I could take them!)) but apart from them he won't really know anyone. *sigh* We'll see.

Well I have to go, I'll be late for work, and I need the money. Ugh. When do I not need the money?

Ugh! I loathe my Psychology professor ><;;;

I had a great weekend all planned out, just relaxing and going out with Sarah and spending time with Adam, which by the way, hasn't happened in a while because we've both been busy with school and work. But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, my professor had to assign us a 5000 word essay on a topic of our choice!

So now I'm stuck at home, being bored out of my mind, trying to figure out something to actually write about, when all I can think of is how I'm starving and I miss Adam -_-;;; I miss having time to see Adam. Oh hell, I miss having time to shag Adam. ><;;;

I've become a nympho... and I like it.

Maybe thats what I should write my paper on.

*SIGH* Agggggggggggh, if anyone needs me, call me. I doubt I'll be doing anything.

Holy shit. I almost forgot I had this LJ. *Brushes dust off* I must remember to start updating this thing more often. Otherwise people might start to think I'm dead or something. Which I'm not.

Well, where to begin? There's quite a lot of stuff to go over thats happened to me in the last little while. For starters: I found out who was breaking into my lockers, stealing my stuff, leaving me notes, calling my cell and so forth. It was Aiden. Turns out he'd been stalking me for a while. Looking back on it, I suppose I should have realised it a lot sooner. I didn't find out about it until he corned me one night when I was on my way home from Sarah's. He was ranting and raving, yelling at me and not really making much sense because he kept talking oddly. Actually, it was as if he was 2 people instead of one.

In anycase, he broke one of my ribs, fractured another few and my lung got punctured. To top it all off with, I had some internal bleeding and that caused my lungs to fill with blood. Which meant I was nearly drowing in my own blood. *Sighs* Thanks to the doctors all of that was taken care of, and I'm now back to being healthy. However, I now have two scars, right near my ribs. I hate looking at them. Call me shallow, call me a dumb blond, but they wern't there before, and I don't want them there now!!

Hmmm... what else? OH! Gage and Rahne found out the sex of thier baby! And guess what? It's a little girl! *Victory dance* I can't wait! I'm gonna wind up spoiling her rotten. Not that Gage won't. I swear, he's a sucker for kids in general. I can't imagine seeing him with his own daughter ^_^ The cuteness of it all scares me.

Well I need to get going, I have an early class, and since I spent the night at Adam's I need to head out a bit earlier to make it on time for my class. I'll update again soon. I am not forgetting that I have a LiveJournal again!

... My car was broken into. I got more notes in my mail box this morning. Gage and Rahne are out of town for the weekened, and I'm at home alone.

Why can't I shake the feeling that something terrible is going to happen?

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What the fuck?

... I'm gonna go give Adam his Valentines day present now. *cross her fingers and hopes he already doesn't have it*

Lets see... I am going to die tomorrow because:

I was busy having sex with Adam so I didn't write my Psychology paper.
I was busy having sex with Adam, and I missed Sarah's party on Saturday.
I was busy having sex with Adam and I neglected all my other homework, chores and even called in sick to work...

I'm having too much sex with Adam ><;;;

Bah.

This is just so aggravating. I don't understand why my lockers are being broken into. I really don't get it. And then... shortly after my school locker break in I found some strange note scrawled into my English notebook. It was pretty creepy. I'm positive it wasn't Adam who stuck it there eaither, so it's kind of worrying.

In other news, Sarah and I finally saw The Butterfly Effect, with Ashton Kutcher ^_^ He's sooooo hot!!! Oh the movie was great too. I was freaking out though, because some parts of it are scary and stuff jumps out at you, but apart from that I was ok. Hmmm... I wonder if Adam will come with me to see it again...

ACK! Speaking of Adam, Valentine's day is coming up. I. Am. Doomed. I still have no clue what to get him... Accccccccckkkkk! Sarah is no help. She's giving Travis LotR stuff. He's the biggest LotK junkie I know. Lucky Sarah. Her boyfriend is easy to shop for. I really don't know what to get Adam. I really really like him and I'm just so lost.

*sigh*

Well I'm off. I'm gonna see if Adam wants to do something tonight. Or if he just wants to do me. ^_~

It happened again! My locker was broken into today at work! It wasn't even my locker at school! It was at the gym! JESUS! Do I have a sign branded on my forehead telling people to rob me?

Now I need to buy a whole new gym uniform from the gym, which means it comes out of my paycheck. Sonofabitch... I really don't get this. It's just odd.

OH. MY. GOD.

It's February 1st....

Valentine's day is only 14 days away! WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO GET ADAM? *Freaks out* I mean, we havn't been together that long, but I really really REALLY like him and I want to get im something nice but I have no clue what to get him! ACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK!!!!

Hmmm... I have no clue. I have no clue.

I can't believe I'm thinking this but perhaps I should track down his ex-boyfriend and ask for his advice. NO! Thats just insane! I am not asking Jordyn for help!

... I'm gonna ask everyone else though ><;;;

Wow. I nearly forgot I had one of these. *Makes a mental note to start posting more frequently*

I've just been seriously busy lately. Work is fun, but lately I've been asked to make part of the routine harder, so I have to figure out how to do that without killing half the class ><;; At least Tai-Bo theres already a program to follow. Areobics is all up to me. *Sighs* Sometimes I wonder why I got into this line of work.

And school has been killer lately. So many bloody papers ><;;; I hate my major. And I still have at least 2 more years to go. Lucky Adam, he's almost done.

Oh yay... Gage and Rahne are at each other's throats again! ^^ Happy home life indeed. They're still trying to work out some way of supporting the baby. Even thought mother cut Rahne and the baby in on her will and she also upped Gage's monthly allowence, he's still worried. I think it's all pointless because if anyone can take care of a baby it's Rahne and Gage... but still. I'm trying to figure out what to buy Rahne for her baby shower. One of her friends is holding it. I always thought those were held later in the pregnancy, but hey, I won't say anything.

Hmmm... what else...

Well actually now that I think about it strange stuff has been happening lately. A few days ago my locker got broken into ><;;; Joy. A few of my note books went missing, my gym bag is gone and my personal planner / address book is gone as well. I had to move what was left into Sarah's locker. I've got a new lock now so I'm gonna move back into the locker on Monday.

I don't know why I'm so worried over this locker break in thing. I can replace everything I lost, except the personal planner / address book. Thats gonna take some time to do. It had all my phone numbers in it as well. I don't know... I've just been a bit on dge lately. I should take up yoga or something to help calm me down.

Still... my locker was the only break in... normally it's just kids at school doing it for kicks, so they'll rob a whole bunch of lockers. But this... this was just my locker. Oddness. I'm becoming paranoid. I still have that odd feeling like someone is following me every now and then. And I have no clue why, becase no one is. I am becoming paranid... thats it. Yoga classes it is, I have to get over these stupid feelings. All the strange stuff is just me with my bloody overactive imagination.

And speaking of strange things, I ran into Aiden again yesterday, on my way over to Adam's. He was in the lobby. Freaky. I didn't know he lived around there... last time I was over at his place, he was about 3 blocks away from my place with Gage. Meh, I guess he and Virginia left and moved to a bigger place. Oh, Virginia is his bigger sister. She and Gage dated for YEARS. She was his first serious girlfriend and such... she was also the first and only woman to ever break his heart. Meh, he's long over her. God, it was horrible seeing him pinning away for her.

Then again, Rahne and the baby are now enough distraction for him for a lifetime.

Well, I think this entry sums up whats been happening with me pretty well lately, so I'm gonna jet. I wanna grab some breakfast before I go to teach Tai-Bo and then I'm gonna go see what Adam's doing today.

... Gage is right. I have no life ><;;;

Fweeeeeeeee~~~

I am up far too late. I fell asleep around 8 tonight and I've woken up now feeling bright and refeshed. The only problem is, is that it's currently, 1:04 am in the morning.

Which means no one is up.

Gage is home, but he's sleeping. And if I do say, he's going to need it. He did the unthinkable. He got Rahne, his best friend, pregnant. He's ranting and raving and wondering why he didn't keep to sleeping with males. Well it's because, brother dearest, you couldn't keep Mini Gage in your pants. ><;;;

It's not like he doesn't like Rahne, he does love her. But I don't think he realises how serious this actually is. The baby is going to need both it's parents. I know how hard it is growing up missing the affection and love your supposed to get when your a kid. But I have the feeling that he'll come around. He did ask Rahne to marry him. He doesn't want the child to not have his name, nor does he want people to insult Rahne. He does want to make an honest woman out of her, but Rahne is a bit old fashioned for all her protests and attitude. She won't marry Gage unless he feels love for her.

And not the best friend love, but actual white hot passionate love and such. So currently, Rahne is pregnant and living in our guestroom worrying about what people will think and how she's going to be able to take care of the baby, and Gage is worrying about being able to support the baby on his salary.

So friggin' complicated.

Things between Adam and I are going ok, or so it seems to be, so thank god for the small miricals. ^__^ And I won't say anything more, because I got a silly comment in the last post. *Sticks tongue out at Adam*

Hmmm... I've run out of things to ramble about.

Actually no, I've healed up great since the accident. I know it was only a short while ago, but my cuts have improved and my ribs are back to normal with light bruises.

And lately... I've had the strangest feeling. Like... I'm constantly being watched or followed. But now I think the pressure of school is making me crazy. No one is following me, jeez! I'm nuts.

Well, I'm off to turn on the TV and see if anything good is on. I can't seem to fall asleep and it really is far to late to call anyone. *Sigh*

Oh. My. God.

I'm going out with Adam.
As in, we're an offical couple.
As in, I'm dating him.

*SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*

I know he can read this and he'll tease me later but...

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Wow. I've heard of stressful days. I've heard of stressful weeks and months and for some unlucky people, even years full of stress. But I think this past week has been the most stressful of my entire life.

Remember the last party I went too? Yeah, well, I'm an idiot. A prized idiot. I actually listened to Aiden when he said he wanted to talk. And then I was stupid enough to get into a car with him, so we could have some privacy. I was to stupid to see that he had been drinking.

And then, we got into an argument, and Aiden ran a red light.

Which means, we got into a car accident.

I had to spend the night and the majority of the next day stuck in the hospital. Mind you, I had a concussion, and was unconsious most of the night and the better part of the morning. But still. The hospital got a hold of my mother, but she refused to come and see me. No suprises there. Then the nurses got a hold of Gage, who showed up about 20 minutes after they called, bringing Adam with him.

It was really nice of Adam to come along. I have the feeling it was a bit akward for him, but at the time I was too upset to really notice it. He vanished for a bit and then Gage somehow managed to get me released early. ^^ I've got a great bigger brother. Adam came back, and I found out he'd made an attempt to break Aiden's jaw.

Aiden hasn't come within 2 feet of me since the accident.

I then crashed at Adam's that night. YAY! The one highlight of the week. *Blush* Actually come to think of it, I've seen him a lot since my accident. *Blush* I really like him. And yes, Adam, I KNOW you can read this. But you already knew that I liked you, so it's nothing you haven't heard before, and I'm rambling. I'm rambling in a bloody LiveJournal post. Oh, Adam, when you have a chance, check your e-mail *grins*

I am so pathetic.

I really should wrap this up. I'm going shopping with Gage soon, ((We're going to Ikea. We need a new couch. Gage and his latest girlfriend Rahne have distroyed the first one ><;;;)) and I have a paper to start for my psychology class.

My only problem is, I don't know how to write it.

*SIGH*

I think I want a vacation.

Mew ^^

Well, I'm currently locked in a bedroom at the party at my friend Sara's, using her laptop to update.

He's here... I didn't think I was going to run into him. It's been so long since we've been in this close a situation. It's really unnerving, actually. Seeing Aiden again...

I actually managed to call Adam tonight, trying to ask him to the party... I got the bloody machine. The one time I work up the nerve to ask him out to a party, and I get the machine. Oh well... I left a message, being my usual stupid self.

I should have just hung up. ><;;;

Well, I can't say barricaded in here anymore. No point in hidding from Aidan now. He won't bother me in front of so many people.

I'm off! I'll update tomorrow night when I get home from the last party before school starts. UGH! Psycology classes are going to be deadly.

*Facefault*

I, for one, am very happy that the holidays are over. Christmas is nice and all, but it's really very stressful. Or at least, I find it is.

Gage was happy with his Christmas present. I just basically gave him clothing, and DVD's. But I replaced his copy of the Kama Sutra, his old one was falling apart and was missing pages. And he got me an adorable sweater, with little kitten ears attached to it! It even has kitty paws that you can attach or remove from the sleeves =^^=

Gage went to see Mother on Christmas day. He got a thousand dollars from her, so thats going to be paying out bills and so forth. I would have gone to see her... but she told Gage to not bring me along. *Sighs* Oh well. I hope she had a very Happy Christmas too.

And then came New Years, which is one of my favorite holidays. New Years was pretty good this year. Sara, one of my girlfriends from my Pyscology class, threw a huge party, so I went to that. Gage showed up for a bit, because he's friends with Sara too, but then he took off with a few people. I think I heard the word, "orgy" but I'm doing my best to suppress that memory, thank you ^^;;;

The only sucky part of New Years, was that I didn't get too see Adam. I know I've never mentioned him before, but I didn't want to get my hopes up. *Blush* Not that I want to get them up now... but still... maybe... *shakes her head* Who knows. I tried calling him to invite him to the party, but chickened out at the last minute. It's not like I've never hung out with him one on one before, but I was nervous about inviting him to anything as my date. *Sigh* He probably had his own plans anyways.

Still... *Kicks self in the head* Not going over this again.

Well, the big string of parties continue. There's another one tonight and then another one two on both Saturday and Sunday. The only thing I'm worried about is that Aidan might be there. *Sighs* I really, really don't wanna have to see him again. But still, I never was one to miss a party, and if they're anything like the party Sara threw, then it will be worth seeing him there.

Well, it's akready 11 and I have some errands to run before the party tonight, so I'm out.

Oh, my New Years resolutions?

To update this LiveJournal more often ^^

The days have been flying by, and I havn't really found the time to type up enteries. Sorry for that. *Sighs* I've been at a few holiday parties already, so I've come home drunk as all hell for the past 2 nights running. Gage thinks I'm trying to steal his reputation. *Giggles*

Only bad thing is, I havn't found the time to finish off all my Christmas shopping. And I'm terrified of braving the malls. All those insane mothers, with baby strollers... *Shudders* Last year I got hit by some insane woman running around trying to find some toy for one of her screaming little brats. I mean, I understand the stress and all, but jeez... watch where your going!

I have to go. I have to buy Gage his last present, so I'll be back later. Wish me luck as I go off to brave the insane shopping mothers of doom! Isn't the 23ed of December supposed to be the biggest shopping day of the year?

Wow. Been a few days since I updated. I've been running around like crazy. This post exists for the sole purpose to let people know I'm alive. I'll make a better post later on. I havn't had a chance to relax yet!

Agggh! I love him to death! I love him more than the average little sister loves a bigger brother, but sometimes... sometimes he makes me so mad I could choke the living daylights right out of him!

He was supposed to come right home after his bussiness meeting. He's an accountant, and he does tons of book keeping for people too. So he had a meeting last night with some of his partners. And then the idiot wound up getting hammered! He was so drunk, that he passed out right there at the bar! He never even came home! I was waiting up all night, worried out of my mind!

So when he did show up, around 8 in the morning, I let him have it. In fact, I smacked him across the head usuing one of my text books from school. And I know I did it hard enough to hurt him. GOOD! He so deserves it. I was so worried about him. Stupid bigger brother. UGGGHHH!

I love him to bits... and if anything ever happend to him... *Sigh*

This is turning out to be too bloody depressing. I'm going to get back to some studying now, but I'll make an attempt to post later on tonight. And I'll leave you all with this adorable, Finding Nemo quiz!!!

- Cissa ^^


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